Basically my week has been annoying

Once winter/cold weather starts I get extremely moody and lonely.I'm tired of not having a boyfriend.

I would like someone to cuddle in bed with and keep warm,someone to give me kisses on the cheek in the morning and will bitch with me about how they don't want to get out of bed.Someone that understands that usually when I say I want left alone I probably don't

I'm like the elephant in the room when it goes into dealing with anything of gay culture because:

- I don't go to gay bars all that often

- I don't live up to the gay stereotype,I may sound like I'm a self loathing homo when I say this but I can't stand most gay guys.To me gay is a man who likes a man or a women who likes a women,I don't get why people feel inclined to act a certain way because they are gay.I don't have frosted hair,wear a&f,or have very feminine mannerisms.I wear what I find comfortable to find,I have tattoos,piercings well obviously.When I go anywhere or talk to anyone who is gay usually I get annoyed within the first five seconds of talking to them because I can't stand extremely feminine guys,Yes I wear makeup,excluding foundation and a bunch of lipgloss and I care about how I look but I don't feel like that makes me look or act super fem.I need a punkrock boy covered into tattoos,hahah I don't need just that,I don't care too much what the person dresses like as long as they can hold a conversation and not fucking bore the shit out of me.I need someone who can handle the fact that Britta and I are best friends and bring out the worst/best of each other,the fact that we are foul mouthed and say the most random things intimidates people,nothing entirely offensive,but I don't feel like I should change that to make people like me,It could be the fact that I AM EXTTTTTTREEEEEMELY SHY,and it takes a lot for me to be outgoing,who knows?